My Bipolar Wings

A poem about the highs and lows of Bipolar and reaching stability.

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Hypo/mania is a special place, life is just fantastically great. I am the life and soul of the party, laughing and joking whole-heartedly.

Others dance with me to my infectious tune, everything in life feels bright, warm, and sunny I hope this doesn't end any time soon.

I sing a cheerful song as I soar through the sky my bipolar wings are helping me fly very high. I fly for days, weeks and sometimes months without much rest, I feel that I can stand this test.

Mania joins me and comes along for the ride flying with me by my side. The sun is too bright and I can't see what is within my sight.

As I reach my peak all of a sudden everything looks bleak, my wings become weak.

Adrenalin leaves my side I am not enjoying this ride. The storm replaces the sun, I am in trouble but its only just begun.

My bipolar wings become battered and bruised, I can hardly move. I nurse my wings, rest and hope for the best, my tired wings wrapped tightly around my chest.

My bipolar wings break and tear, now they are broken and I have woken, they served me well but now I am in hell.

I am going solo all the way, falling down while I pray. I fall straight down into a mixed state, and then depression, a dark place filled with anxiety, pain, tears and hard lessons.

I have flown in the sun and battled the storm, now it’s time to stop and learn how to walk.

I say goodbye to my wings and find my legs, they are weak and numb, I feel so dumb.

I walk with a limp, I stumble and fall, I crawl across the floor.

The road is a bumpy ride, and there is no where to hide. A visit to the psych, and a med review would be nice.

Slowly step by step my legs strengthen, as I walk around with the others in this stability dimension.

I have roamed around with the others here in the past too, but have left at times I can tell you.

It's a lot of hard work, sweat and tears, recovery takes time. But it is worth it I shall keep that in mind.